King of Sloth (Kings of Sin, 4)
King of Sloth: Chapter 9

Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, triple fuck.

It wasn’t the most mature response, but it was the only one that accurately summed up my situation.

It’d been thirty-six hours since my movie night with Sloane. Thirty-six hours since our dance lessons.

Thirty-six hours since I’d discovered how perfectly her curves fit beneath my palms and how much more intoxicating her scent was compared to even the finest whiskey.

It was knowledge I could’ve done without because now that I’d experienced it, I couldn’t imagine not reliving it.

Unfortunately, the chances of that were slim, considering how badly I’d fucked up.

If my friends hadn’t interrupted us, I would’ve kissed her Sunday night, and I was certain, positive, that she would’ve let me. Otherwise, she wouldn’t be avoiding me like I was the devil out to corrupt her.

I glanced down the beach to where Sloane sat by herself, reading that damn communications book of hers.

With my friends’ help, I’d convinced her to join our boat excursion for the day, but she’d kept to herself the entire time.

Snorkeling in the crystal clear waters? No.

Taking advantage of the gourmet tapas and open bar? No. Saying a single word to me after we boarded the yacht?

Absolutely not.

“Where are you going?” Evelyn asked when I stood. Despite what Luca said about not hooking up with her again, the two of them had been all over each other all day.

I made a vague excuse and left my friends to their devices.

Other than Luca, I wasn’t particularly close to anyone in the group. We partied together often, but I wouldn’t spill my deepest, darkest secrets to them or anything. In fact, I was starting to resent their presence because they took time away from Sloane.

“It’s a shame to waste a beautiful day like this,” I said when I came within earshot of her. We’d stopped at one of Mallorca’s hidden coves for lunch, and while we weren’t the only ones on the beach, the early-October crowd was sparse enough to give us relative privacy.

“I have sun, sea, food, and a good book,” she said without looking up. “I’m not wasting anything.”

I sat beside her. “We have different definitions of good,” I drawled.

She didn’t respond.

When I was a kid, my friends and I used to argue over which superpower we’d rather have. I’d fluctuated between flight and invisibility, but right now, I’d sell my Ferrari for a glimpse into Sloane’s thoughts.

Fuck it. There was only one way to get her attention. “We should talk about our kiss.”

Her movements stilled. Then slowly, deliberately, she slid a bookmark between the pages, closed her book, and looked up. It was seventy-eight degrees, but goosebumps coated my skin like I’d walked into a meat freezer.

“We never kissed.” She enunciated each word with terrifying precision.

“Technically, no, but we almost did. So let’s talk about it.”

Sloane’s knuckles whitened. “There’s nothing to talk about. It was late, and we had too much to drink. Period.”

“So it doesn’t affect our relationship in any way.” “Of course not.”

“Then you have no reason to avoid me.”

Recognition of my trap flared in her eyes. “I’m not avoiding you.”

“I didn’t say you were,” I replied easily. “I said you had no reason to.”

Sloane inhaled an audible breath. I could practically see her counting to ten in her head. “Is there a point to this conversation?”

“I just wanted to clear the air about Sunday night.” “Consider it cleared.”

“Good.”

“Good.”

We sat in silence for a second.

“Is there anything else?” Sloane asked pointedly.

“Sure. If you could have any superpower, what would it be?” She closed her eyes and rubbed her temple. “Xavier…” “Indulge me. This is what people do. Talk.” I gestured between us. “We’ve worked together for years, and I don’t even know your favorite food.”

That was a lie.

I knew she loved sushi because it was neat and easy to eat on the go. I knew she preferred double cheeseburgers when she was on her period and steak, medium rare, at client dinners unless her client was vegetarian, in which case she ordered soup and salad.

She liked her wine white, her coffee black, and her gin with a splash of tonic.

I knew all of these things because despite her assumption that I paid attention to no one except myself, I couldn’t stop noticing her if my life depended on it. Every detail, every moment, all filed and categorized in the Sloane cabinet of my mind. Sᴇaʀ*ᴄh the ꜰindNʘvel.ɴet website on Gøøglᴇ to access chapters of novels early and in the highest quality.

I would never tell her any of that, though, because if there was one thing sure to send Sloane Kensington running, it was the possibility of intimacy.

“Fine,” she said, bringing me back to the present. “I’d choose time travel so I could go back and fix any mistakes I make.”

“But then your life wouldn’t be what it is now.”

She glanced away. “That’s not necessarily a bad thing.” The crash of waves filled the silence.

From the outside, Sloane appeared to have the perfect life. She was beautiful, smart, and successful, and she counted some of the most powerful people in the world as either her friends or her clients.

But I, of all people, knew appearances were deceiving, and the shiniest surfaces often hid the ugliest secrets.

“If you had the chance, wouldn’t you go back and change things in your past?” she asked.

My hand involuntarily fisted the towel. Regret swelled and collided with memories I thought I’d locked away long ago.

“Xavier!” The panic in my mom’s voice bled through the roar of the flames. “¿Dónde estás mi hijo?”

He’s just a kid. It was an accident… If he’d been more responsible…

It should’ve been you.

The reek of smoke and charred wood filled my lungs. The beach cove closed around me, the steep cliffs forming prison walls and the glare of sun against sand whitening my vision.

Then I blinked and the nightmare receded, replaced by my friends’ laughter in the background and the touch of concern on Sloane’s face.

I loosened my grip on the towel and forced a smile. “Everyone would change something if they could.” I still tasted ash on my tongue. I wanted to spit it out and drown it with beer, but I couldn’t do that without raising suspicion. “Do you still talk to anyone from your family?”

It was the only topic I could think of that would divert Sloane’s attention. She was sharp enough to pick up on the shift in my mood, but I didn’t want to discuss the reason with her or anyone else. Ever.

As expected, her face shut down. “When I have to. Have you talked to your father recently?”

Touché.

She wasn’t the only one who considered family relations a taboo subject.

“No. He’s not exactly in the right state for friendly phone calls.” Even before he’d fallen sick, he hadn’t been a great communicator. With his business partners and friends, yes. With his only son? Not so much.

Sloane tilted her head, obviously trying to gauge my true feelings regarding my father’s illness.

Good luck, considering even I didn’t know how I felt.

He was the only direct family I had left, so I should have felt strongly about his potential death. Instead, I only felt numb, like I was watching an actor who looked like my father wither away on a movie screen.

My father and I had never been close, partly because he blamed me for my mother’s death and partly because I blamed myself too.

Every time he looked at me, he saw the person who’d taken the love of his life away—and he couldn’t do a damn thing about it because I was the only piece of her he had left.

Every time I looked at him, I saw disappointment, frustration, and resentment. I saw the parent who’d taken out his anger on me when I’d been too young to understand the complexities of grief, who’d given up on me and made me give up on myself before I even started.

“He’ll pull through,” Sloane said.

She didn’t try to comfort me often, so I didn’t ruin the moment by wondering if, maybe, things would be simpler if he didn’t.

It was a terrible, ugly thought, the kind only monsters harbored, so I never uttered it out aloud. But it was always there, festering beneath the surface, waiting for the right moment to strike.

Sloane’s phone lit up with a notification. I glimpsed a telltale email icon before she snatched her cell off the ground and the moment collapsed around us like a sand castle at high tide.

“No work,” I reminded her.

“It’s not work, it’s…” Her skin took on the hue of bleached bone.

I straightened, concern washing away the remnants of unwanted memories. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.” She stood, her expression frozen. “I’ll…I’ll be right back.”

Did she just stutter? Sloane never stuttered.

She walked away, leaving me to stare after her and wonder what kind of message was possibly bad enough to throw Sloane Kensington off her game.

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