Love conquers all
19. Panic attack

I was lying in a bed, hearing a “beep, beep, beep” sound near me. I tried to open my eyes but I was so tired I couldn’t. What was happening? Why was I lying here? Where was I?

“We managed to lower the values ​​...” It was the voice of Doctor Leporis explaining something to someone, but I could not understand. One of my questions had been answered: I was in the hospital.

In a moment I fell into a deep sleep again.

Occasionally I was able to emerge from sleep, but I could not move a muscle.

I felt someone holding my hand. I felt someone stroking my hair and face. I heard someone cry. I could hear someone talking to me, but I couldn’t follow to hear what he was saying to me. I could hear someone lying next to me, Nathan. His scent was so comfortable it warmed my heart, but it pissed me off not being able to open my eyes, not even being able to move a half finger. S~ᴇaʀᴄh the Find_Nøvel.ɴet website on Gøøglᴇ to access chapters of novels early and in the highest quality.

I could not have said how long I had been in that state of helplessness and unconsciousness, but I could certainly say that I had never felt alone. I could hear my mother’s voice saying: “Nathan, go home to refresh and rest your body and mind. If there’s any news I’ll call you immediately!”

“No, do you remember what the doctor said?”

“I know what the doctor said, that the Mate’s proximity to her can increase the cure rate.”

“Exactly and I’m not leaving Myra for nothing in the world!” My heart was overflowing with love, in fact you could hear the machinery that just before made a regular beep at that moment was in danger of exploding. While my mother was calling someone to come and check on me, I was finally able to open my eyes. The vision of Nathan’s face seemed blurred to me, but I would have recognized him among a thousand million faces.

“Myra, Myra ...“; he kept saying my name, but I couldn’t speak, maybe I needed a moment more.

“Myra, how are you feeling?” Dr. Leporis asked as soon as I saw him appear in my field of vision.

“She can’t speak, what’s wrong with her?” Nathan asked in a worried tone.

“Maybe we have to give her a little more time, don’t forget she was in a coma for a week!”

“How can I forget that!?” Nathan blurted out, I gently shook his hand, to turn off the tones with which he was continuing that dialogue and finally the word seemed to begin to work.

“My love ...” the voice was hoarse and very low. It took a lot of effort to get it done and it was the first time I’d called it that. It seemed to work, he turned to me and put my face in his hands: “Little bird, I’m here!” His voice was on the verge of tears and immediately afterwards Dr. Leporis continued to ask the routine questions which I was able to answer with the result: “It seems all right, you just need to regain your strength, Myra.”

“Thank you Doctor!” My mother said, also replying in my favor, while Nathan and my father bowed their heads in greeting.

Suddenly I remembered what my eyes had seen before they left me. I looked around, I scanned the whole room, there was my mother, my father, Nathan… Val? Where was my brother?

“Where’s Val?” I asked with my voice still weak, at none of the three in particular. It didn’t matter who answered me, I just wanted to know about my brother. My mother hugged my father’s chest as he too looked away from me. Something was wrong, my mother started sobbing and it was then that panic began to assault me.

“Nathan ...“, I looked at him desperately, with tears filling my eyes and then descending on my face. “Nathan ...” I said once again, with the lump in my throat; I couldn’t stand their, his silence.

I wished I could have misunderstood what their silence meant, but I would have believed it only when that bitter truth emerged from the mouth of one of them. It was too difficult to bear, to understand, to accept, so much so that he was sucking all the oxygen out of the room, making me hardly breathe. The machinery, which monitored my vital signs, was out of control and the emergency medical team swooped in on me.

“What happened?” The nurse asked, while the doctor checked me.

“She asked for his brother and ...”

“It’s a panic attack! Myra, listen, you have to try to breathe, look at me. Breathe with me, inhale and exhale. Breathe, otherwise I’ll have to sedate you, you’re on the verge of collapse. Breathe ...“, I shook my head frantically and tried to breathe. I didn’t want to be sedated, I had been in a coma for a week, now I wanted to feel, despite all I could feel was excruciating pain. After a few minutes, everything was back to normal, except for the pain that pierced my heart. I would have carried the pain of losing my brother within me. Fortunately, I wouldn’t have had to live much longer, but if I were in a world where this monster didn’t exist, I would have made my life the most precious gift.

Dr. Leporis left the room with his team in tow. My father and mother went to the hospital café for a coffee. Although silence was what I wanted to surround myself with at that moment, I would never ask Nathan to leave my room.

“Hug me!” I asked him, making room for him on my hospital bed. Without saying a word, he settled down next to me. I rested my head on his chest and held in his arms. I cried all my pain, until I fell asleep between sobs.

After a week I left the hospital and started going back to school. My wonderful friends supported me, pampered me, spoiled me.

The first night I had to sleep at home, after returning from the trip and from the hospital, I was very impatient with the idea of ​​having to let Nathan go away.

At the moment of saying goodbye, on the porch of the entrance I proposed to him a madness.

“Would you like to jump on my bedroom window? I don’t want to sleep without you!”

Nathan walked over to me, putting a lock of hair behind my ear.

“I can enter through the door, why through the window?”

“I don’t want my parents to know!”

“Why? Maybe they even give us their blessing.”

“You know what I think about this, do you want to sleep with me or not?”

“Of course Ido! But ...”

“No buts, just jump on my room window.”

“Ok, ok, I’m going.”

I said goodbye to my parents and went straight to my room, the window was ajar so Nathan was already lying on the bed with his hands crossed behind his head.

“Do you want something comfortable to wear for the night?”

“No, I usually sleep in briefs or nothing. Is that a problem for you?”

“Absolutely not!” I said, biting my lower lip, starting to walk towards my bed.

“Do you want to do something before bed?” I asked without the intention of unleashing double meanings, but unfortunately I had no luck.

“There are so many things I would like to do to you before going to sleep!”

“I was wondering if you wanted to go somewhere or do something, because I still see you dressed.”

“Now that I have found you have no problem with the way I sleep ...“; he got out of bed and with a leap was in front of me. He took the hem of his shirt, but I stopped it. I took the hem of the shirt from his hands and lifted it over his head and threw it on the chair. I continued to keep my gaze fixed on him, in the meantime I unbuttoned the belt, then the trousers and with my fingers I also grabbed his briefs pulling everything down, with a slow and sensual descent. I was aroused and Nathan was also, I could tell it from his erected member. He helped me up and looking into my lustful eyes, reflecting his, he said: “Myra, you came out of the hospital today, I don’t think this is a good idea!”

“I was discharged because I’m fine. I won’t break if you make love to me!”

“Myra ...”

“Nathan ...”

“Myra ...” he shook his head in battle.

“I need you, my love!” I said in a desperate attempt to get him to let go. I needed to merge with his body, to crush my thoughts and above all to feel something that was not the unbearable pain of losing my brother.

After a few minutes of intense looks and caresses, Nathan kissed me. With that kiss I knew he would let go. That night we made love, sweet and passionate; it was as if our souls had touched and intertwined with each other.

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